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Friday, 16 December 2011

YOU MUST READ THIS: It's hard to choose whether to be good or not.. When you do the right thing, did anybody would even recognized it and praise you for that?? Sad to say not even a glimpse.. But whenever you did even just one BAD thing, everybody would be like a monster to you. Make you feel like you got SARS, AIDS, Tuberculosis

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Eyes Wide Shut

I watched this movie yesterday. I was curious why does the movie entitled Eyes Wide Shut until after I have seen it. The movie talks about betrayal against trust, importance of communication, love versus temptation, conscience and loyalty; understanding and forgiveness between married couples. Eyes Wide Shut is a 1999 drama film based upon Arthur Schnitzel's 1926 novella Traumnovelle. The film was directed, produced and co-written by Stanley Kubrick starring Tom Cruise (Dr. Bill Harford) and Nicole Kidman (Mrs. Alice Harford). Hereunder is the Plot of the movie:


        "Dr. Bill Harford and his wife, Alice a young couple from New York, go to a Christmas party, given by a wealthy patient, Victor Ziegler. There Bill runs into an old friend, Nick Nightingale, who dropped out of medical school and now plays piano professionally. While a Hungarian man tries to pick up Alice, two young models try to take Bill off for a tryst. He is interrupted by a call from his host upstairs, who had been having sex with a young woman who has overdosed on a speedball. 


Next evening at home, while smoking marijuana, Bill's wife asks him if he had sex with the two girls. After Bill reassures her, she asks if he is ever jealous of men who are attracted to her. As the discussion gets heated, he states that he thinks women are more faithful than men. She rebuts him, telling him of a recent fantasy she had about a naval officer they had encountered on a vacation.

Disturbed by Alice's revelation, Bill is just then called on a housecall to the deathbed of the father of a now-engaged female friend, who impulsively kisses him and tells him she loves him. Putting her off, he takes a walk down the streets of New York, and meets a prostitute named Domino, and goes to her apartment. Their encounter is awkward, but as they begin to kiss he is interrupted by a phone call from his wife, after which he calls off the encounter.

Bill goes to meet his friend Nick at the Sonata Cafe; there he learns that Nick has a later engagement that evening where he must play the piano while blindfolded. Nick tells him about the beautiful women he glimpsed when the blindfold slipped at the last gig, allowing him to surmise some of the goings-on. Bill presses for details. To gain admittance, one needs a costume, a mask and the password. Bill drives late at night to a shop called "Rainbow Fashions". Having been the doctor of the previous owner, he offers the new owner, Mr. Milich, a generous amount of money to rent to him now. Searching for a costume, the owner catches his teenage daughter with two Japanese men and expresses outrage at their lack of sense of decency. He threatens to call the police.

With the costume, Bill takes a taxi out to a country mansion where a quasi-religious but highly sexual ritual is taking place. One woman comes to Bill, takes him aside and warns him that he does not belong there. He then meets another girl in whose company he walks through a few rooms where an orgy is taking place. The first woman catches up with Bill and insists he is in terrible danger for they suspect that he is an outsider. Bill is then interrupted by a masked porter who tells him that the taxi driver who is waiting outside wants to speak with him. However, the porter takes him to the main room where the masked, red-cloaked Master of Ceremonies confronts Bill with a question about a second password which Bill is unable to answer. The Master of Ceremonies insists that he "kindly remove his mask", then asks that he remove his clothes. The masked young woman who had tried to warn Bill now intervenes and insists that she be punished instead of him. As she is taken away, Bill asks what is going to happen to her. The Master cryptically replies her fate is sealed and Bill is ushered from the mansion and warned by the red-cloaked Master not to tell anyone about what happened there.

Just before dawn, Bill arrives home guilty and confused, where his wife Alice is now awake and tells him of a troubling dream in which he and she were in a deserted city without their clothes. She felt frightened and ashamed while he went off to try to find their clothes. After he left, she felt better, finding herself, still naked, in a beautiful garden. The Naval Officer emerged, stared at her, and the two of them began making love surrounded by many other couples doing the same. She then started having sex with many of those men and laughing at the idea of Bill seeing her with them.

The next morning, Bill goes in search of Nick. After he locates his hotel from the nightclub owner, the desk clerk there tells Bill that a bruised and frightened Nick had checked out a few hours earlier after returning with two large, dangerous-looking men. The clerk also mentions that Nick tried to pass an envelope to him when they were leaving, but that one of the men noticed this and intercepted it, then Nick was driven away by the two men in a limousine parked outside the hotel, with no mention as to where they were going.

Before going to work, Bill goes to return the costume and the shop proprietor, with his daughter by his side, states he can do other favors for Bill "and it needn't be a costume". The Japanese men leave; Milich implies to Bill that he has sold his daughter for prostitution. Bill has misplaced the mask, so is billed for it. Bill returns to the mansion in his own car and is greeted at the gate by a man with a typed note warning him to cease and desist his inquiries. At home, Bill thinks about Alice's recounting of the scene while he watches her tutor their daughter.

That evening, Bill goes to the home of the prostitute with a gift. Her roommate greets him, telling him Domino has just discovered she has HIV. Bill leaves and notices that a well-dressed man is following him. After losing his pursuer, Bill reads a newspaper story about a beauty queen, Mandy, who had died of a drug overdose. She has the same name as the woman he had treated at Ziegler's party. He goes to the hospital, claiming to be her doctor, and examines her body in the morgue.

Afterwards, Ziegler summons Bill to his house and tells him he knows all the events of the past night and day. Ziegler was one of those involved with the ritual orgy and his own position with the secret society has been jeopardized by Bill's intrusion. Bill is now concerned with the death of Mandy, whom Ziegler has identified as the woman at the party who'd "sacrificed" herself to prevent Bill's punishment, as well as the disappearance of Nick. Ziegler insists that Nick is safely back at his home in Seattle, but does not know where to contact him. Ziegler also insists that the "punishment" had nothing to do with Mandy's death; she was a junkie and she really has died from another accidental drug overdose. Bill clearly does not know if Ziegler is telling him the truth, but he accepts it anyway.

When Bill returns home, he sees the mask he had rented on his pillow next to his sleeping wife. He breaks down in tears and as Alice awakes, he decides to tell her the whole truth of the past two days. The next morning they go Christmas shopping. His wife muses that recent events do not define their life and they should be grateful they have survived and are still together and that she loves him. She then says they need to, in her own words, "fuck" as soon as possible."


The film used materials to emphasize the lessons of the movie. Masks were used signifying pretension. Many people nowadays uses mask to protect their pride, name, and dignity, and tried to avoid shame, and verdict. 


It was said that this has been the last film directed by Mr. Kubrick before his death in 1999. Although the film was well-accepted by critics, there are other critics disputed because of its controversial sexual contents. 

--TO BE CONTINUE....

Friday, 9 December 2011

Ang minsang pagkabigo..

Nang mahalin kita, napatunayan ko sa sarili ko that I am capable of loving somebody.. Natutunan kong tumanggap ng mga bagay na hindi man kagandahan basta ikaw ang involve eh ok lang.. Natutunan kong humingi ng sorry kahit ikaw pa ang may kasalanan.. Natutunan kong ngumiti kahit ano pa ang pinagdadaanan ko kasi nakikita kita.. Natutunan kong gawin ang mga bagay na dati naman eh hindi ko ginagawa pero para sayo kahit anu magiging simple lalo na kung ang kpalit nun ay ang isang magandang ngiti mo.. Dahil sayo, natutunan kong maniwala sa mga pangako kahit na alam ko na walang bagay na permanente sa mundo maliban sa pagbabago.. Dahil sayo, naging masaya ang buhay ko.. pero bakit kailangang IKAW din ang maging dahilan kung bakit ko natutunang sumimangot?? Bakit kailangang ikaw pa ang magdulot sa akin ng kabiguan at kalungkutan?? At bakit sa lahat ng itinuro mo tila nakalimutan mo yatang ipaalala saken na kailangan ko rin paminsan-minsang umikot sa sarili kong mundo?? LUHA?? Oo, ito ang pisikal na reaksyon ko sa tuwing nararamdaman ko ang kalungkutan, pero alam mo ba kung anong mas nakapagpapalungkot dito?? Yun ay ang katotohanang wala na ang buhay na panyo na dati ay dumadampi sa mukha ko para mapawi ang mga luha na ngayon ay tumutulo para sayo..

Wednesday, 7 December 2011

Everyone is unique.

may mga taong biniyayaan ng magandang legs, pero hindi naman maganda ang katawan.. maganda ang katawan, pero hindi maganda ang muka.. may magandang muka pero hindi maganda ang ugale.. may magandang ugale, pinagkaitan naman ng kagandahan.. may magandang ugale, at maganda rin naman ang muka pero wala namang utak.. merong may utak na, maganda pa, nuknukan naman ng sama ang ugale.. may matalino, at magandang muka pero sa katawan naman nagkaproblema.. But whatever you look like, whoever you are and no matter how terrific your life would be always remember that we may have differences, flaws, or even if we outstand among others in terms of anything this world could give, it's our attitude that matters most & no one can take your place because it is only yours to fill.. Each one of us is a unique creation of God.. enjoy every moment of your life because yesterday will be part of your past, today is your present struggle and the outcome of yesterday while tomorrow is another chapter of your story and it is for you to create.. shades all the hue on it, never regret if you fail because that's where you learned lessons, do whatever you like just as long as you'll be happy and you don't hurt others, live your life as if there's no tomorrow, that way everyday of your life will be momentous and worth living for.. :)

Thoughts towards things that cannot be.

Sometimes, you desire for things that are not destined to be yours.. While others asked for you but you can't take them because you simply don't... Ang hirap talagang intindihin ng kapalaran minsan.. Sometimes you need to do stupid things to acquire lessons.. You need to make stupid mistakes to grasp what others were trying to tell you.. Alam mo nman ang tama pero bakit ginagawa pa ang mali?? Bakit kc nauso ang mali kung pwede nmang tama nlang ang ipauso di ba?? Sabi nila no man is an island daw, pero bakit maraming tao ang nagpupumilit na sarilinin ang problema nila kahit hindi nila kaya?? Bakit?? Feeling mo ba sa wonderwoman ka o si darna na kapag sumigaw ka lang, powerfull ka na?? Sana nga pwede yun pero malamang kung sakali man wala na sigurong bato sa hardware o maging sa daan dahil nilunok na ng mga tao.. well sounds funny, yes! But if ever nga kaya, for sure isa ka sa kukuha ng bato, tama?? Ang hirap naman kc talaga lalo na kapag nalilito ka na.. OO ilang taon kang nag-aral para lang matutunan ang RIGHT & WRONG, pati na rin ang PROBLEM SOLVING na hindi mo nga rin maintindihan kung pano nadamay ang X & Y sa algebra, at kahit ilang beses pang ulit-ulitin ng teacher mo ang relationship ng Quadrant I, II, III & IV sa pagkuha ng sukat ng triangle sa trigonometry lesson mo, eh hindi mo naman maintindihan kung bakit pa kasi nila pinakealaman ang triangle sa mundo tapos pinapahirapan kang i-solve ang formula ng kung anu-ano para lang matuwa sila sayo kahit na hindi kna natutuwa sa kanila.. Pero naisip mo ba, bakit mo nga rin ba pinapakialaman ang mga bagay na hindi naman sayo o hindi naman para sayo lalo na kung alam mo namang hindi rin matutuwa sayo ang nagmamay-ari sa kanila?? Dahil ba sa gusto mo lang?? Balikatarin naten ang sitwasyon, kapag ba may kinuha sila sayo na mahal na mahal mo matutuwa ka kaya sa kanila?? Ang hirap no?? lalo na ang tanggapin ang KATOTOHANAN na HINDI PWEDE?? Oh di ba?? May pahabol kpa ngang tanong na BAKIT?? well, simple lang ang sagot, KASI HINDI PWEDE--PERIOD.. kailangan ba lahat nlang ng bagay may dahilan?? hindi ba pwedeng kung anu yung sinabi ko yun na yun?? Kahit nman mag explain pa sayo ang kahit na sinong PONCIO PILATO ang ending na desisyon ng korte suprema dun eh malaking YES OR NO lang.. kaya subukan mong tanggapin ang resulta magdudulot man ito ng saya o hindi.. :)

Sunday, 4 December 2011

Sorry sa tatamaan hindi ko sinasadyang mkapuna ng totoo..


Why there have to be tough people?? Numb and hard to please that even when you're bursting out in tears to let them see how cruel they are, they won't even say sorry.. always wanted to be the star of the scenario and very bossy, perhaps they were thinking that everybody in the mob are monthly paid nanny!.. always saying words or promises they can't keep, and most of all moody, like you were ok now then suddenly their mood swings somewhere as if wind blew them away and descend to hell for a second long and immediately take back and now pronouncing endless prayer of a witch , louder as they shout and irksome enough that will let you cover up both of your ears or even walk out of the door just to find a little peace of mind.. :/



Well I'm not saying this to hit your head or something.. but to warn you.. we never know baka isa ka sa mga taong ganito.. You know, let's admit the fact that sometimes we've been tough due to a lot of reasons but bear into your mind darling na ang paminsan-minsan at nasa lugar eh ok lang at ang sobra eh lagi naman talagang nakakasama.. at hindi lahat ng commotion ng mga tao sa paligid mo eh dahil lang sa bad breathe ka, o may bad odor ka, mas madalas na dahilan eh ang pakikitungo mo sa iba.. Maybe it's about time for a change.. wag mong sabihin na "ito ko eh, tanggapin nila ko kung anu ako" -- ay te gasgas na yan! Panahon pa ng katipunan marami ng humihingi ng KATARUNGAN, minsan MAKINIG ka nman, hindi lang nman ang chismis ng kapitbahay o maging ang latest trends sa fashion ang "worth it" pakinggan sayang nman ang tenga mo kung magbibingi-bingihan ka lang.. malay ko ba na DEAN's Lister ka rin pala pero nkakasad naman kung gagraduate ka bilang honor student pero hindi mo natutunan kung pano maminimize ang ATTITUDE PROBLEM MO.. payo lang ah, try to give yourself some time for self-realization, malay naten magwork.. :)

Monday, 14 November 2011

Techy or Not??: Learnings from the Past

Techy or Not??: Learnings from the Past: Cheerful, kind, and simple is the first impression I get hold of when I met her. She is unique among others and her beau...